IT HAS BEEN FOREVER

wow....I actually have not taken the time to write anything down for a long time. A few months ago i was letting a guy ready what i have written and he called me bitter. That word stung so bad that i decided to put down my writing pen for a really long time.DO NOT EVER DO THAT. how could i have let someone (especially a guy) impede me from writing my feelings down and sharing with everyone what i feel to be important to me?

OK OK so i am over that. I would like to start out by saying that i have learned a lot. I am not nearly as smart as most but i know that i have come a long way from NOTE #1 and for that i am grateful. In between the last note and to now i have come across a lot of great men that have helped me to become better, NOT BITTER, but i have also come across those that have shocked me and made me laugh for lack of manners that they had.

I will have to go back still a few years to pick up where i left off. When i got over Mr. Classy i changed my view to his roommate, and that was convenient. We can call him Mr. CNN. He was intelligent and happy and mysterious. He watched the news all the time and he was informed of things in the world.He owned his own business and it intrigued me to see what he could do. I remember going to the gym with him often that summer and he inspired me to be a better person.I felt a peace in him that was not very common and i was drawn to that. I never told him how i felt (atleast i don't remember telling him) but of course everyone could see it. He never responded to that but they rarely did(haha) I am still grateful today for the laughter and peace brought into my life and i know that he is happily married now in California.

There were some here and there in between all of that and i am sure i was affected by those but in smaller ways. I have had countless first and second dates that could make it into my writing and some will. It has all been an experience worth laughing about and i look forward to sharing my stories to all.

I want to state that i do not write these stories to embarrass anyone or make fun ( although i have no problem making fun of myself) I do this to share my story. Some may feel they can relate and some just may find humor it these stories but all along i have always gained something.