Back in America...note 7..March 26th 2009

While i was in Italy i turned the beautiful age of 25 so when i returned to America i felt like i was plenty old enough to start looking for someone to get serious with. With my heart full of love i was open to it. WELL...along comes Mr. Player. At the time i didn't know that is what i would end up calling him, believe me. If that would have been the case i would have just skipped right over him. HE live on the border of kentucky and Tennessee, far enough away to still have his own life but still be a part of mine. I had met him once before my trip to Italy because someone felt we had so much in common since he had lived in Italy once as well. HA, well that turned out to be about the only thing we both had to share. So here we are again "reintroduced". We started spendind time together and not long after my return to America he was asking for me to be his girlfriend. Though i had always felt that "Wrong" feeling i still spent time with him. I could never really fully commit but we can all understand why in minute. HE moved very quickly for whatever reason. I just politely kept putting him off and kept waiting for that feeling but still i felt a bad one. sothere we were from December thru around March or April. There was one day in there when i got a sudden rush of emotion and told him i wanted to be with him. That was weird but eventually it just faded out.THANK GOODNESS. Later i found out that he had dated my sister while i was gone in Italy and was dating my friend (and later roommate) the same time as me. Eventually even after all that i found out he enjoyed looking at pictures that none of us should ever see......BUT ANYWAY. I guess he thought he could get away with all that being an hour drive away frome me. No wonder i always had that nagging feeling inside to not go forward. He was getting around to everyone! Thus his name....Mr. player. Needless to say i didnt feel one bit of heartache with him when it didn't work out, maybe just a bit of irritation for wasting my time. MY lesson learned was to listen that feeling you get that pulls inside of you. It will ALWAYS be right. My first job after i returned to America was at a Bank. It was a fun job and for some reason i had lots of fun opportunities there. For some reason i had guys coming to the bank to bring me things frequently. Seriously, one brought me flowers, another invited me to a Destiny's Child concert (which was awesome...ha ha) another bought me a purse (i know random) and a couple took me out to lunch and dinner. Maybe it was just that i was really nice. Honestly i had no idea why. I promise i wasn't adding any extra cash into their accounts! ha ha.....IT was all fun but i knew deep down that none of them had what i was looking for . There WAS one at the bank who captured my attention for a bit. HE was actually the manager of the bank and though it was forbidden to date anyone at work we found time to secretly become involved. I had never dated anyone like him before. HE had dark skin, a BMW, came to church with me and was the BOSS. i mean really he had it all ( not so much) HE was really smooth though so it was easy to get distracted by it. We spent some time together but eventually these bank boys got to me. At one point i went on a first date with some one who wanted to share a meal, no big deal. BUT then the 2nd date came around and he called and asked me out. when we got there as we were standing in the ticket line for the movie he stepped back and said "ok...your turn to pay" i was so shocked at that i couldn't sit thru the entire movie. I eventually went into the bathroom and called Mr. Pop Culture. And can you believe even after that he had the nerve to ask for a kiss at my car ....uhhhh NOOOOOO. so though i had alot of fun stories and good lunches i needed to find someone with the same values as me. Eventually august came around, my lease was up and i headed for Utah, ROUND 2....here we go again.oh and P.S. somewhere after the time i got back from Italy i decided confessed my feelings again to Mr. Arizona once again with yet another rejection...i know i know...once isn't good enough right...ha ha