LIFE LIKE A MOVIE...GOING ON 30

So if anybody knows me well they know that i want to write a book. Well a book about my life experiences. Not that my life is that different than anyone else's. I just handle it a little different. My life is just as good as a movie. Every tragedy, funny moment or heartache really entertains. I didn't set out to make my life that way, it just is. HE tells me that i shouldn't compare my life to the movies so much but i am really not. I am just living a movie of my very own. My life could be characterized into so many genres, a comedy, a drama, and yes even a very good chick flick. I believe that i am having all of these experiences for my benefit. I am in love with a man and have been for almost 3 years. HE has been in love with me vocally for about 3 months. HE treats me so kind, shows me i am worth something, motivates me to be better, makes me feel safe, is the most honest person i know, would die for anyone, and i have never seen anyone with more potential the HE has. HERE'S THE CATCH...for 2 and a half years HE has never been sure enough that it IS enough to give me his last name. and there is where the heartache comes in...Yes most would say RUN! just run! but how do you walk away from a man that treats they way you have always wanted to be treated but doesn't have the gumption to commit? Where do you draw the line and when comes the year when you finally walk aways and leave everything you have built? If you saw me now and saw me 3 years ago you would see a completly different woman. i am now strong, motivated, compassionate and willing to give sushi a try....even 10 years ago at 20 if you looked at me you would see no resemblance at all...people change. I feel that i have the power to do and change almost anything except pursuade. Pursuade a man that every bit of laughter, all the tears, and all of our experiences have been worth building forever. Does HE ever catch a glimpse of me as his wife or as the mother of HIS children? MAYBE. Heaven only knows but i know i see that potential in him everyday.Everyone over the years have all given their opinions and i have greatly appreciated them. What is really comes down to is following my heart and listening to that voice even if it is telling me to do this just for the experience of what it is. So, i continue. No matter what anyone tells me, my heart will always win(keep in mind my brain has a huge part in my decision making) Along my path of "singleness" i have experienced many things. ask me for a story, they are all good :) I have been hurt many times, become bitter and angry but i have also been loved, been treated better than i deserve and been told how much worth and potential that i have.Whatever comes. If HE were to choose another over what we have become, there will be tears, and anger and depression and change and if HE chooses ME there will be tears and happiness and peace. but whatever it is ill will continue forward. I will forge ahead wether it is with my head held low for awhile or if it is with my head held high. I will still move forward. When you take out a thread of the fabric of your life it is bound to come apart but with that you have the ability over time to thread it back together into a fabric that is just as beautiful as the one before. it will just be different. OR you will commit to share everything with another and you have the opportunity to add another wonderful thread into your fabric to make it even stronger than it was before. Every moment is a lesson. Whether it hurts or makes you happy it is intended to build you. I am a wonderful woman but i know that my full potential will not be realized until do what i came here to do. Love may not be easy but i have never heard anybody ever say it was. The only thing i know is that it is worth it.