through the static comes a friendship...note #3


so sometimes through all the failed attempts at finding someone who could be a match you find the one who becomes your one true friend for the rest of your life.....previous to moving to North Carolina i made a friend. Let's just call him Mr. Pop Culture :) so on leaving HE left as well to Las Vegas. we had become friends and honestly that is all that it was ever intended to be. after both returning to Nashville from our moves we became closer. we talked about everything, HE was my BFF. :) don't get me wrong for a moment there was a rush of that emotion with me and maybe for like half of a half of a second HE felt it too (i doubt it) but it wasn't meant to be that way so we continued forward. we Could laugh at people together, motivate eachother,share the love of music, dance the night away and complain together. HE honestly was and still is a really really good friend. I am so grateful for the formation of that friendship because here we are 10 years later and though thousands of thousands of miles keep us apart HE is the one i still share everything with. though we have had our hard months and big disagreements HE is still someone i trust. HE has been there through all of the frogs that never turned out and HE has always been the one to make me laugh. HE is honest and though it has stung at times i appreciate it. HE councils me and guides and helps me to see what the wiser choice would be. though i haven't always taken his advice i do appreciate it. though HE says the grossest things at times i know HE is a guy(Those things happen ha ha) so sometimes we get lucky enough along this journey to find those friendships that form with the opposite sex that just stay and are there forever.though HE never went to school to be a counciler i always thought HE should have. i will tell you there have been some days i wanted to scream "stay out of my business" but i am ever so grateful still .....and if we go more than a few days without a phone call i feel something is missing.HE knows me better than anyone.(except fot the the man that i am in love with)....mr. pop culture is famous or HE will be...HE is the best singer ever and HE is so motivated to reach his dreams no matter what anyone says. HE is a natural leader. HE can tell the funniest stories and maybe now that i think about it that is where i get being so sassy from. forming friendships with girls is easy but keeping and maintaining a friendship with a guy takes something special.so now that i have told that story you may here more about him along the way.back to the static of returning from north Carolina.during this time it is unclear the timing on everything.so with Mr. pop culture by my side we made some friends. i went on one date with a guy i swear was in the mofia. the one date we went on HE "forgot his wallet" thank goodness i brought mine. i mean HE ordered a steak and everything. GOOD GRIEF. i am a girl of independance but come on , if you invite me be prepared.so that was short lived. maybe once i went dancing with him somewhere downtown nashville but that isnt worth repeating. there was another as well that came along for a minute during this time. i can't even remember his name but we became penpals when he moved to ohio and i still have a poloraid of him floating around somewhere in my stuff. HE was very nice but at the time i wasn't ready to be a girl in charge and i think that is what HE required and i also didn't like the fact that while i drived my stick shift he insisted on holding my hand during.ha ha no..... so not so much luck during that time.i was able to make another friend during this time, or so i thought. interstate 65 in Nashville will always provoke a memory that makes me laugh. HE was someone i could talk to, laugh with and at and just feel comfortable around. that was soooo short lived. friendships changed and this one sure did. i don't know where HE got the idea but one night he was driving us some where and reached over and kissed me! while driving! on the freeway! in my mind at the time i think i was kinda into him so i thought okkkk. BUT it cursed us. his claws came out after, HE was rude and impatient and i felt the one to blame. so the friendship was over and years later when i have seen him i have still felt like he liked himself more than anyone else. now it is a funny memory and will always be a joke between mr. Pop culture and i but then it wasn't so much......i sincerly hope HE is happy.along this static another friend came along as well, this one made my heart pound and i felt HE could definitly be it. HE came from Arizona and like my very first story in note #2 he was in love with music (Thus his reason for a move to Nashville) we got along well and HE was as sweet as can be.kind, sincere and so talented. i learned alot from him and respect who HE is. those feelings that i felt blossomed into a bigger feeling than i anticapated and for the next couple years my heart was there for him. i would have done anything for him and at the time i did. i remember leaving something on his doorstep that HE stood in need of at the time. i felt an excitement because i was sacrificing and serving someone that i cared for. to this day i don't believe HE ever knew it was me but i don't know. though HE never gave me a chance i am grateful for that. now years later our paths are in 2 different places and though we had similiar dreams at the time mine have changed and his have not. i would like to thank him for never returning the emotion.i still consider him a friend and though we may see eachother maybe once a year. i hope that HE is happy. he seems that way.though i liked my life during this time i felt that i needed to make a change so some how i came up with the idea to move to the west. UTAH here i come! those couple years there were filled with some fun experiences. the best is yet to come.